I am never old enough

For my father, who knew.

I am never old enough

Enveloped in your big gentle hands

I had seen my world for the first time

Had smelled that familiar fragrance of your being

And had heard the beating of your heart

All I knew my world was that

Your hands my father and your beautiful scent

The familiarity of your voice and

The warmth of your hold

In that awareness I had grown up with

I had learnt to sit by you and comprehend

What a treasured, cherished loving connection is that

Without my saying you understand

That I am never old enough

For your fatherly gazes my father dear

I am never old enough

For your loving hugs and that loving stare

I am never old enough for

ice cream treats at nights of winter

I am never old enough

For sugar treats before dinner

I am never old enough

For memories that both of us share

I am never old enough

For your smile, love and gentle care

I am never old enough

For those crazy jumpy rides

And those freaky long slides

And my wanting, twice and thrice

Dad I am never old enough

And Dad…

 I want you to know

Your little girl

Is fighting hard

As hard as you told her to

In the game of this life

But dad…..

There are times
.......
Times when

In the busiest of days

And loneliest of nights

I still need ice cream cones

I still want sugar candies

In my school bags between my books

I still want gifts wrapped in colored papers

I still want your little tricks

Those horses made of paper clips

I still love your big gentle hands

Because I am never old enough

For your love,

For you care

For your smile

Or For you  

Your little Girl~